relevancy is bliss

relevancy is bliss
being seen? unimaginable excitement.
God only knows why,
but we all crave attention/
sometimes i get to wondering:
"why even waste my time?"
(i can scream, i can shout, i can try with all my strength)
ain't nothing bringing you back to me.
you gazed upon me only one season
months flying past like a dream
what i felt being in your limelight now only makes me cringe
don't know why
but i wished for you
every night at 11:11
hoping you'd pull through
relevancy is bliss
however, so is being ignorant
maybe i don't need you
maybe i'm insane
either way, you're gone
all i can do is complain